Monday, October 5, 2015

REdiscovery to Self

those chipped nails tho? 
16 months. That is how long I have been trying to figure out how in the hell am I supposed to get back to a steady pace of blogging. Life as a mom doesn't leave much time for hanging out on the laptop like I used to. "But other moms do it. They even have phenomenal Pinterest worthy parties too," I would often think to myself. But I am not that mom. I'm Nik, the amazing procrastinator. Then the cross country move from California back to Michigan didn't help. With such a cold winter, mostly spent indoors, I still didn't find the time to sit and write. Why? Because I was too busy ooh'ing and ahh'ing over my drooling baby boy who was slowly becoming an independent, fearless toddler. I find time throughout my day to snapchat my life as a mother, assistant store manager and wife, but how and WHEN do I find that time to get back to what kept me sane for so long? My love of everything beautiful and fashionable?
when the newest thing in your wardrobe is work out clothes

Oh, and speaking of fashion. Yeah, that went down the drain as well. I don't think I ever really carved out a style of my own. I had always liked to wear whatever felt right at the moment, but now, the only thing that covers my body is usually black and covered in yogurt, pizza sauce or juice. I work retail and my dress code is so boring. Solid black or white top and black bottoms. I usually sift through clearance racks for something appropriate and "business casual" enough to get me a pass as a manager in my store. Any other monies that aren't sucked up by adult responsibilities are usually spent on my kid. He will forever have the most amazing wardrobe, we'll have to touch on that another day, but mom? Well, I get whatever I can make work from season to season. Outside of work and my occasional gym visit, I don't have clothing that would even be remotely cute enough for posting on the internet. I mean, unless you guys are really interested in seeing toddler hand prints on me? No? I thought not. I did have some great moments during the summer when I chased Carter around in a bikini with no fear...well, mostly no fear. That swimsuit was super cute and of course I snatched it up for a great deal! But what else is really picture worthy?
swimsuit from 

And that brings me to my blog. How am I to maintain this? What do I talk about now? I have a different perspective on life now that I have a small humans boy that resembles me. I still have this love for clothing, style and beauty, but now, I put tons of energy into my family. I do things like crafts, and I like to decorate for the holidays. We've been in our apartment for almost a year now, but I'm still in the process of decorating and making it feel like home (until we are ready to buy a home, of course). I have Pinterest fails and I take tons of pictures of family life. My blog will forever be a reflection of me and if you are up to it...and quite frankly if you are still reading, I would love for you to join me on this journey to finding me again. I love being Nik, the wife and mother, but I miss being Nik, the fearless fatty who inspires other women.

If no one ever reads this, then at least I will have a diary of this self rediscovery.

exploring the city with the family

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

It's a hard knock life; Carter's 3 month photos

Oooh Carter. What a tough life for a baby. A couple of weeks ago, we asked Anthony of The Capture Studio to photograph Carter for his 3 month pictures. I remember when I was younger, I wanted to be a baby photographer. Hmm, I think I've changed my mind...for now. By the way, if you are in Southern California and you're looking for a photographer, I highly recommend The Capture Studio. He's shot a couple of things for me and it always turns out great!

We started with naked baby shots. Yes, I want to have my baby's booty on film forever! Don't judge me. I also brought his cute baby skinnies and plaid button down with matching chambray bow tie from H&M for our family pictures. Little man was going to be sharp. Only thing is, Carter got fussy, proceeded to pee on mama's new dress, and then passed out mid photoshoot. Haha! I think we got some cute shots regardless!

Daddy trying to entertain Carter before he passed out on the couch

Slobber monster!

After he peed on me, I calmed him down with his favorite baby video
Definitely is a hard knock life <3 td="">

Sunday, June 15, 2014

I've got the postpartum style blues (ootd)

Like some new moms, I'm finding it a bit difficult to express my personal style, which still, by the way, isn't clearly defined at the age of 32, on top of juggling a newborn. I can admit that most days, I may not get a chance to shower, I'm lucky if Carter let's me brush my teeth and slick my hair into a bun. I've felt so absolutely frumpy most days, and I must apologize to my husband; this is not the woman that he met and married. I figure if I'm being drooled on, spit up on, peed on and sometimes even sharted on, why get all dressed up? Besides, since I'm not back to work yet, most of my day consists of figuring out how to entertain an 11 week old and trips to Target and Babies R Us for fun. Those days are nothing that sweats and a comfy tee can't handle.

Even with that said, I don't want to fall into a rut. Yanno the one where the mom always looks tired, stressed, and like she hasn't showered in days. It happens, but I don't want to lose sight of Nichole...the woman I was before I was a mommy and wife. So I promise to get dressed at least once a week. Aye, we all have to start somewhere.

I snagged this Coogi skirt from the buy/sell/trade facebook group called FatToo. I find myself endlessly searching for new items to add into my closet, all while getting rid of clothes that I have never touched or don't wear anymore. The tank is an old graphic tank I purchased from Forever 21 a couple summers ago. Oh and I think I failed to mention that I pretty much live in my Chuck Taylors now. Ha! It's either those or flats. At least until I can figure out how to balance a baby while struttin' in 4 inch heels.
Moms! How do you do it? How do you juggle looking put together while juggling a baby? What's your secret? I see you ladies out there, struttin' with them new babies and I just want to know. Show me the ways!
Family selfie! :)

Tuesday, June 3, 2014

The day I became Mrs. Ryan Anthony Lumas

Better late than never...right?

Love and Marriage (update thru pictures)

First comes love...

Est February 11, 2010

Second comes marriage...

Two become one

Introducing Mr. and Mrs. Lumas
August 18, 2013

Then comes baby in a baby carriage...

Carter Lamar Lumas
Born March 25, 2014
6 lbs, 13 oz, 21 inches

And that is just the beginning. Stay tuned...

Tuesday, April 30, 2013

San Diego (His and hers OOTD)

On Friday, Ryan and I woke up at 6 am to be in San Deigo by 10 for his friends Naval Commissioning. Needless to say, I was not the least bit prepared to put on my best face so early. I decided that my peplum LBD by PennyChic (available only at would be chic and simple enough to throw on at 7am. For some color, I threw on my bright2l pink suede mary janes from Call It Spring and added my statement necklace appropriately named, "Mini Ga."  I'll admit, short dresses are not my thing. I thought this was long enough when I tried it on at home, but turns out that it rides up quite a bit while walking. Which had me tugging and pulling. Then again, I'm 5'10" and I tend to go with longer dresses for that reason.
Ryan looked mighty dapper himself. I just had to share his look with you. Lately I find that he is outshining me when it comes to taking fashion risks. And it all started with his moustache. He is building his entire wardobe around his facial hair. It's kind of cool, but he makes my outfits look boring in comparison lol Ahh well. I like a snazzy dresser!

Monday, April 29, 2013

My journey to better health

Hey y'all! It's been a minute. I KNOW! There are so many moments when life gets way busy. I have finally started to kick start my wedding planning because my mother will not have it any other way. I will share with you all in separate posts as to what's going on. But, I have also been training for my first 5K. If you follow me on facebook or Instagram, then I'm sure you've already noticed my attempt to get back into a healthy, active lifestyle. Remember around the new year when I said one of my goals was to become much more active? Well, I have been and I plan on continuing it.

I've been really hesitant to talk about it on here. I know so many fat bloggers get shit for working out and eating healthy. Which, if you ask me, is body shaming at it's finest, but that's another topic...for another day. Some friends and readers of my blog have inquired about my new routines. They want to know and see what I'm doing. My thing is, I didn't want to focus on the numbers at first. Meaning, I don't want to focus all of my energy on changing the number on the scale. That will come naturally with any change in eating habits and daily exercise. I've been working out 4-5 times a week for 45 minutes to an hour. I started with simply trying to make exercise a habit. It takes 21 days to create a new habit. I'm happy to say that I am now on week 5 day 1 of my new exercise routine. I also wanted to focus on how I feel, energy, stamina, overall sexiness. Rawr!

My goal...
To run or at least jog my very first 5K run. Thanks to my friend Lynnelle at work, I am hoping to participate in my first run  ever, the Firefly Run! I also want to do the Run For Your Life Run in September. So damn excited! Not sure exactly why I want to run, but I'm sure it has something to do with the fact that people don't think fat girls can run.
In order for my heels (oh God my heels, they hurt to the point where I can't stand without assistance some days) and legs to stop aching as much as they do, I must lose at least 45 lbs. I work on my feet, and it kills me to haul around over 330 lbs during an 8 hour shift. About 10 years ago, I was at this weight, which is my highest. I went to the doctor about a few concerns and of course the first thing he told me to do was to lose weight. I rolled my eyes and instantly became offensive. When I finally decided to start exercising, and the weight started coming off, I could feel the difference in how I felt at the end of my work day. He was right, I had to lose weight in order for my heels to stop killing me and for my sciatic nerve pain to go away. Not to mention, it's pretty scary stuff when your father has open heart surgery at the age of 59! The diabetes, the heart disease, the all has me looking at my health a bit differently.

Some things I have tried...
So because I want to run jog in a 5K, I have to get my ass off the couch right? I downloaded the Zombie 5K Training app which satisfies my need for all things zombie related since The Walking Dead is now off the air until the fall. This app is pretty sweet. Technically, I should be doing it outside, but I've found ways to do the exercises and drills on the treadmill. So needless to say, I've been doing tons of walk/run drills. Since I'm a member at the gym, I do most of the cardio equipment and I hit the free weights about 3 times a week.

Taking on the Culver City stairs proved to be a bit overwhelming for me. So Ryan and I walked the path, and I'm happy to say that I made it to the top! I plan on doing this outdoor work out much more often.

I do take a thermogenic from GNC. While I cannot recommend this for everyone, I will say that it gives me the energy to complete my workouts without that jittery feeling. I actually started taking this one in particular last year while doing Insanity because getting up at 6am to workout, well, I need that boost. I get that and it doesn't leave me feeling like I'm dragging throughout the rest of my day.

Some things I plan on trying...
A couple of months ago, I was selected to try some weight loss products from Creative Bio Science. I didn't respond right away because I wanted to make sure that I could make this healthy lifestyle change  first. The thing about these products is that they will not make you make you skinny overnight. Hell, I don't even want to be skinny, that is NEVER the goal for me. I just wanted to make sure that I had a better eating regimen and a regular active lifestyle before I added anything for "weight loss." I think with products we tend to get our hopes up. I certainly did not put these 80 lbs back on overnight, so I don't expect them to go anywhere overnight. So when I was contacted again to see if I was still interested, I felt that I was ready. I am at a point in my routine where I'm willing to try a supplement to see what it does for my current goals.

I have decided that I am going to try Garcinia Cambogia 1234.

Scientists and medical professionals believe HCA extracted from Garcinia aids weight loss in two ways: it helps block fat formation, and it suppresses your urge to eat. Dieters still need to eat smart and stay active, but HCA enhances diet results. It appears to fight fat by inhibiting citric lyase, an important enzyme that our bodies require to convert carbohydrates to fat. HCA also acts to slow production of LDL (bad) cholesterol in the same way. 
HCA also increases serotonin (a.k.a. "happy hormone") levels in the brain, which not only improves mood by reducing anxiety and depression, but reduces your likelihood of eating as a response to stress. Many of us resort to comfort food when we encounter stressful situations.
I am choosing this one because I tend to be an emotional eater, and I eat when I am bored. It's a terrible habit. While I've learned to grab something much healthier, I'm hoping that this will aid me. Not to mention I'm planning a wedding and just recently took on a new position at work, so my stress levels tend to be a little high these days.

If you are a blogger and you think you'd be interested in testing out one of these products to do a review on your blog, visit While I totally did not initially weigh myself when I first started working out 5 weeks ago, I have weighed myself over the last two weeks, not including this week and I have lost 5 lbs. It could be more, but totally wasn't thinking about weighing in when I first started.

So there you have it. This is what I've been up to for the last month. I've become a gym rat and working on my endurance so that I can jog my first 5K. I really hope you guys will be open to me adding a few health related things on here. If I offend you, then I cannot apologize. My intent is to not force you into a lifestyle change, it's to share with those who have asked me about my workouts and routines. I will not shun you, shake my finger, roll my eyes or any other rudeness if you choose to continue your lifestyle as you see fit. So if this isn't your thing, that's ok! I just ask that you completely respect not only myself, but those who seek a change.

Thursday, April 4, 2013

Domino Dollhouse Nuclear Seasons

I absolutely LOVE when I check my email and I get any sort of updates from Tracy of Domino Dollhouse. I've been stalking following them on FB and Instagram and I already had a pretty good idea that this Spring collection was going to be trippy. Eeeee! Super happy to share with you all the Nuclear Seasons Spring Collection from Domino Dollhouse.
We had full on 90's nostalgia for Spring '13 and thus created the Nuclear Seasons collection. We continued focusing on spectacular fit and threw in a heaping dose of print mixing to create this bold and bright Spring collection. We focused on streetwear; totally wearable pieces for everyday life that are ANYTHING but pedestrian. We've used stretch velvets, luscious stretch mesh, and lycra fabric to enhance ease of wear and make the fits more flexible. This entire collection was Made in the USA and the quality is superb. The Nuclear Seasons Collection pieces are available in sizes 1X­4X and range from $34.99 to $99.99.
Pretty sure I'll have to make this mine!

Photo Credits:
All of the clothing garments in this look book were designed and created exclusively by Domino Dollhouse*
Models: Lia Freeman and Alex De Vel
Photography: Shannon Brooke Imagery
Make Up: Natasha Marcelina
Hair: Frankie Sin
*All of the accessories are available for sale, but not designed specifically for our shop. Shoes and tights not for sale

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