A shot from my very first shoot (yes, I climbed up into a tree and the photographer followed)
In the Fall of 2005, I was talking to my, then, boyfriend about how I've always wanted to model. Like every fat girl, I've always heard, "You have such a pretty face." Talk about a back handed compliment. Ryan, an old Ryan not the current Ryan, said that he thought I should give it a try. I mean, I had maintained an 80lbs weight loss; I went from a size 26 to a size 18 over the course of 6 months. We sat there and brainstormed about the possibility of photoshoots and modeling contracts. It all sounded so very exciting. He reminded me that I wasn't getting any younger and that if I wanted to try anything that I should probably jump on it. I sometimes hated how unforgivingly blunt he was, but he had a point. I was 23 and I knew for a fact that most models careers come to a close around that age.

A few days after our lengthy discussion, I started doing my research. At the time, I had no clue about the modeling industry, let alone the teeny weeny plus modeling side of the industry. All I knew at that time is that I needed to get my face out there, I needed someone to notice me. I first joined
www.modelmayhem.com to start networking with people who actually worked in the industry. I posted a couple of everyday pictures of myself and awaited feedback and the possibility of setting up a shoot. I reached out to other plus size girls who were aspiring models. Whoever they worked with, I would click on that link to befriend the photographer/makeup artist who did their shoot. During my search on plus size modeling, I came across a forum board,
www.plusmodels.com where I was able to post pictures and get feedback from actual models and professionals in the industry. The discussion forums were immensely helpful and the girls were able to provide me with constructive criticism.

*one of the pictures I had posted on MM so that I could get my face out there*
I had no problem getting interests of photographers. The problem was this: is their work something I'd want to represent me? My first shoot was done by Mike of Blue Water Photography and he was an amatuer. Which was completely fine with me because I was fresh meat and needed more "professional" pictures. My poor $20 webcam could only do so much. But as I discussed with my friends, I wanted to always make sure that I was getting better, meaning, I had to step my game up and that included photographers as well. At the time, I was being approached by lots of GWC's, a term created by pros in the industry meaning "Guy With Camera". Usually these were guys (or even women) who preyed on new aspiring models. They butter you up and tell you that you have a wonderful look, but in reality, they just want to get you naked in front of their camera. I have nothing against nude photography, I just knew it was not the way that I wanted to go in terms of my modeling. Especially not with a photographer that has a wrinkled sheet as their backdrop. I've always been interested in photography, so I knew what quality looked like.

I traveled all over the midwest and set up TFP (time for photos or prints, it's an exchange between the photographer for a models time, usually a collaboration) shoots with photographers. One weekend, my boyfriend and I (cause he made an excellent personal assistant and carried my bags and fed me during long shoots and always after) made our way down to Ohio. It was then that I worked with a couple of photographers. My first stop was in Cleveland. I forget the name of the first photographer, but I do remember she was a tad bit OCD and had this strange thing where she didn't like to touch the walls. I had a lot of fun working with her and it was my first time wearing false eye lashes. Lord, they were so long. She did my makeup and provided me with props. One of my favorite images was (to the right) me in a black jacket and black bra. I only wish I had knew the importance of a supportive foundation back then especially when doing photoshoots.

After that, Ryan and I headed to Columbus to work with
Andrew Clifton, now in Chicago. Andrew was full of information. I loved his enthuisiasm for photography and his black and white images were to die for. I was happy to work with him. I do believe he was still in the process of developing his skills but he had a great energy which was infectious. He was crazy and outspoken, I loved him instantly. Over the years, Drew and I developed a friendship and he would always push me and my pictures to be better than the last. I only shot with him once, but I value all of his input because I respect his work.

After a few months, I was starting to put my book together. I had been approached by friends and family as to why I had not been to an agency yet. Well, mostly because I lived in Michigan and there were mostly commercial agencies, most of which I found were scams anyways. I knew that if someone wanted me on their roster, I wouldn't be paying them any significant cost up front for "classes" and such. Secondly, I was still on the larger side of "plus". I was a size 18 and from looking at Lane Bryant ads, I knew they used plus models between a size 10 and 14 for their campaigns. My goal was to continue working out and get down to a 14. That never happened, so I never actively persued going to an agency. Besides, I lived in Metro Detroit, I mean really, was it feasible that I could travel to Chicago or NY for jobs on my retail income? I always felt discouraged when it came to agencies. I continued plugging away at shoots for my portfolio, which I found out after research, you don't actually need! Your portfolio is usually built once your signed. If you are a fresh face walking into an agency, they are not going to ask you for your portfolio, they will snap polaroids of you, give you feedback and either ask you for more info or decline. Testing with photographers is what builds your port and the agency gives you a list of potential photographers.

During my networking, I met Sara Beth. A fellow freckle faced aspiring plus model. Sara eventually became my side kick and we were determined to take the modeling industry in Michigan by storm. Sara and I traveled together for shoots and castings. Together, we gathered information in regards to anything remotely related to plus modeling. We talked about which photographers felt would benefit one another. I think Sara was probably the captain of my cheerleading squad. She was supportive and always pushed me to try out for things, even when I felt like I wasn't exactly what they needed. It is important to surround yourself with supportive, positive people. My family was suspicious when I first started but once they realized that I wasn't doing porn (lol) they jumped on board.
Over the last few years, I've tried to keep myself involved in the plus industry. I have been seen in Beauty Plus Power editorials, rocking the runways and at any plus event that works with my schedule and funds. My main goal at all times is to stay active and make sure that I am not forgotten about. Before I moved to Chicago, I had been pretty low key for personal reasons, but now, I'm attempting to get my mojo back. I've been getting back into the swing of things lately.
Points that I hope I made:
1. Research, research, RESEARCH! The industry is always changing, it's up to you to keep current.
2. Network with people who's work you admire and are inspired by.
3. Beware of scams! If it doesn't sound right, it probably isn't. I've had many people try to scam me but I've noticed that when you ask a ton of questions, it makes them sweat. Let them know that you've done your homework.
4. If you are a larger plus girl, make your body and your look work for you. Don't be discouraged by the fact that many smaller girls may land a gig. Keep trying, eventually you will get noticed.
5. Keep a strong support system.
6. Go to every model casting that is in your area, even if it doesn't call for plus models. Try it anyways!
7. Stay active.
8. If you want to know if you really have what it takes, an agency will glady give you constructive feedback. If they turn you down, don't get discouraged, keep trying (medicine I'm trying to follow)
This was a pretty hefty post, so I will post another blog on tips and links, please stay tuned. If you care to see more pictures, click my
modelmayhem online port!